Noise Polution

September 26, 2011 at 12:11 pm (Uncategorized)

…Drowning out the noise in my god damn head!


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August 21, 2011 at 1:25 am (Uncategorized)

Feel like I’m dying…

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April 4, 2011 at 8:54 pm (Uncategorized)

So the other night my boyfriend and i, whilst watching ‘Choke’ a film based on the novel by Chuck Palahniuk who also wrote ‘Fight Club’, we got into a discussion about the soul. We’d had this conversation a few times, but i always seemed to walk out of the conversation in a huff, because i believed that we all had souls and he did not. This night however, we started talking and i threw in everything i thought, believed and knew about the soul, or some sort of energy that resides inside all of us that could be represented as a soul. And my boyfriend counteracted everything i said with scientifics, or more to the point, how as with most things the soul was a man made creation. Religion played a big part in the belief of a soul, and considering im not a religious person what so ever, or i should say not a Christian, this interested me even more. I started questioning why did i believe in a soul? When my boyfriend put it to me, that the soul was created by religion, and looking at it realistically, what was a soul?
I said that i didn’t think that it was a spirit or an aura that dwelled within us all waiting to be released when we die, but more an energy that we all had. He said some thing’s that he’d said to me before, but this night i think my mind must have been more open, or maybe i was jsut ready to hear what he was saying, but it suddenly hit me….Maybe the soul was a man made thing, and i infact did not have a soul.

This literally crushed me, and i stopped speaking. After about an hour of my boyfriend asking me what was wrong, i finally told him, that i finally believed that souls did not exist. He could tell i was upset, and he himself was upset that he’d caused me to think that. We had a deep comforting discussion, as i was very upset, because of personal reasons and things that had happened in the past, and by the end of the night i had a few new ideas.
And although coming to the realisation that i did was upsetting, it came to something good. A few nights later i had a significant dream, and putting alot of things that were going on at the time, i came up with an idea of a new novel. Ive already wrote down the basic plot and characters, and im totally excited to see where these ideas take me.

Hopefully i’ll have something to show for it in the next couple of weeks 🙂

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